This afternoon, i've been thinking a lot. As though, i got a sharp knock on reality. And i realised i've a lot of problems/ frustrations which i too am not sure abt. I mean, i've things stuck in my heart, vry stuffy feeling, can't breathe, can't vent. :(
Lot's of thoughts arise. Was i wasting my life on SS501? Will they know me, the nobody? I'm sorry, but thn suddenly it felt pointless. Like as wht my sis said, "no life, loser. "It's the same idea. i mean my sis is vry mature in thoughts. I must admit, i used to waste my life on thm. Last time whn i was so addicted, I need to watch thm, before heading to sch and after classes! Now, it feels like no meaning in everything. Jst no mood.
I feel bad fr wanting to tell others my prob i'm facing. I mean others too have their own set of probs. So shldn't impose on thm. Like wht i keep feeling lately, i wna drop all my work and head elsewhr... At this rate, i'm not sure wht i'm doing. My body is instinctively telling me, something's wrng, but i can't figure it out. Yes, u're gna tell me to see a dr. But so? Can he solve all my probs? Cn i sleep off my probs? If i can, hw long?! Will it help?!
I keep wanting to talk to you agn, but it stl seems like we're stl drifting apart. No, u may not have given me tht idea, but... Have you noticed? I keep initiating the conversations! I'm willing to sacrifce the time too.
OKAY, NOW I NEED MY ME-TIME!

